Be yourself
get rid of all the restrictions and conventions holding you back. People love to speak into your life and judge what’s good and what you should not do or be. But remember you are perfectly made, your purpose is not to be there for people and it’s not what others say. You can find it in yourself. Deep inside you there is already everything you are. You don’t have to add things or people to your life. You are so rich in personality and your character is right before breaking out of all that shit around you. Maybe you stand in front of a broken life. That’s good, now you have the opportunity to restart. Try as good as possible to burn old thoughts about yourself. You are a good creation, a masterpiece.
People will try to tear you down and hold you back from who you really are, because it will change their lives as well. You are a projection of their wishes and needs. Don’t forget, it’s not about who you really are but about about what you add to their lives. But you are not created for that. Understand me right, it’s okay to add something good to others lives, but never deny or sacrifice yourself.
Remember you are beautiful, you are perfectly made, you have a purpose that will satisfy you completely, you deserve good, you deserve being yourself without any excuses.
My age
There is this question, you know the one you don’t want to hear and the one you don’t want to answer: “How old are you?”. Either you’re too young or you’re too old.
I always say: “I’m 17”. Sounds nice. Sounds young and free. No responsibilities. The future lies before you. You have the chance to decide what you want to be later when you’re grown up. I always lived the life of a 17 year old.
The most dangerous times are the days around my birthday. That’s when I overthink my age, it’s every time like that. I hate it. Because I’m miles away from being 17.
I am free like 17 and experienced things like I’m 70. I have friends which are 17 and I have friends over 60. I start to study now. I move out of home. I lost myself a thousand times and found me again, better, stronger and wiser.
This time everything is different. I love me. I mean not the life I live, not my circumstances I’m in, and all that stuff. I love me. I’m found home in myself. I’m feeling good. My age has nothing to do with who I am. It’s unnecessary. I am who I am. So I decided to be ageless.
xo beni
Fading away
My old life completely fades away and on the horizon there’s a new life coming up. There’s so much change. Everything changes. Days, hours and minutes are running by and it feels like years have passed. My life’s gonna be fabulous. No more regrets. No one that holds me back. I’m getting over it because I’m a conquerer. No more turning back. I’m getting where I want to be. Slowly. Perfectly. I will never be the same.
Knocked down
Often it’s like that it makes no sense to stay strong but please stay, don’t give up, conquer all the bad thoughts and feelings and prosper. I pray that you get better out of it!
Dignity & Freedom 